Ariana Grande is sharing her heartbreak over Mac Miller‘s death for the first time, and her emotions include anger, sadness … and deep regret she couldn’t get him to stop using drugs.
Ariana posted a video she’d shot of Mac back when they were dating — it’s a touching clip of both of them giggling as he playfully asks her to stop recording. In the caption, she says, “I’m so mad, I’m so sad I don’t know what to do. you were my dearest friend.”
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i adored you from the day i met you when i was nineteen and i always will. i can’t believe you aren’t here anymore. i really can’t wrap my head around it. we talked about this. so many times. i’m so mad, i’m so sad i don’t know what to do. you were my dearest friend. for so long. above anything else. i’m so sorry i couldn’t fix or take your pain away. i really wanted to. the kindest, sweetest soul with demons he never deserved. i hope you’re okay now. rest.
She adds, “I’m so sorry I couldn’t fix or take your pain away. I really wanted to.”
Mac and Ariana were a couple for about 18 months, and he was by her side during the Manchester bombing.
She insinuates they had discussed the possibility of him overdosing … saying, “I really can’t wrap my head around it, we talked about this so many times.”